Someone please tell me this feeling goes away...or at least settles!
A little background: I opened my home daycare about 6 months ago. I really wanted to be home with my kids and wasn't happy with the job I had, but I have to bring in some income. When I started interviewing I took the first kids that wanted a spot (for fear of leaving my job and not having enough spaces filled). This led to 3 infants and a 3 year old (plus my 2 year old). The infants are all at different stages. One is walking (pretty good) now, one is almost walking and one is crawling. I have SUCH a fear of them getting hurt. The oldest infant, is the clumsiest baby I have ever seen. Trips and falls over his own feet, runs into doorways- you name it, it seems he gets a new bruise or bump on the head weekly. To be fair, he does get them at home too, but every time something happens, I literally feel sick about it and get sooo anxious. Same with the other 2. Today my daughter accidently "kicked" one of the little boys in the cheek. It was very light and the boy barely cried, but a red mark showed up immediately and I started getting so stressed.....Is this feeling just because I'm new or am I maybe too anxious of a person for this job?? I know kids get bumps and bruises and I never freak out when it happens to my daughter but when someone else's kid gets hurt I feel like I did something wrong or like the parent will be upset... I even know I'm getting too upset over most of these things, I just can't quite settle myself down. I feel like I'm putting too much pressure on myself to keep everything perfect, but I don't know how to stop it.
A little background: I opened my home daycare about 6 months ago. I really wanted to be home with my kids and wasn't happy with the job I had, but I have to bring in some income. When I started interviewing I took the first kids that wanted a spot (for fear of leaving my job and not having enough spaces filled). This led to 3 infants and a 3 year old (plus my 2 year old). The infants are all at different stages. One is walking (pretty good) now, one is almost walking and one is crawling. I have SUCH a fear of them getting hurt. The oldest infant, is the clumsiest baby I have ever seen. Trips and falls over his own feet, runs into doorways- you name it, it seems he gets a new bruise or bump on the head weekly. To be fair, he does get them at home too, but every time something happens, I literally feel sick about it and get sooo anxious. Same with the other 2. Today my daughter accidently "kicked" one of the little boys in the cheek. It was very light and the boy barely cried, but a red mark showed up immediately and I started getting so stressed.....Is this feeling just because I'm new or am I maybe too anxious of a person for this job?? I know kids get bumps and bruises and I never freak out when it happens to my daughter but when someone else's kid gets hurt I feel like I did something wrong or like the parent will be upset... I even know I'm getting too upset over most of these things, I just can't quite settle myself down. I feel like I'm putting too much pressure on myself to keep everything perfect, but I don't know how to stop it.
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