I have been going through a pretty bad burnout and I am trying to come out of it. I realized most of my stress during the day stems from a very difficult child I have in my care. I have been wanting to term for a few months now, I just always feel guilty and decide not to.
This child might actually be leaving mid-summer (new baby on the way and I don't have an infant spot) or fall (on waiting list for preschool), so I don't know if I should wait and see if she does leave or term sooner than that.
Some of the reasons I'm thinking of terming:
-She smells like cigarette smoke every morning, which causes my entire house to smell and many mornings I get an instant headache when she's here. Also, we just found out my oldest has developed asthma and is now on an inhaler and my youngest has really bad allergies.
-Throws temper tantrums all day long (even after being in my care for a year)
-Screams and cries when asked to do something herself (pull pants up, put coat on, clean-up time, etc.)
-Hits me when I try to talk to her at her level about why we don't take toys or block other children from playing in different areas
-Is extremely overweight and clumsy (I am afraid to have babies on the floor if she is near).
-Is no where near potty-trained and constantly soils through her diapers because they are too small
Just writing this I feel bad, but I don't know what to do to come out of this Burnout. :/ I know I would be able to fill her spot, but I hate letting people down.
This child might actually be leaving mid-summer (new baby on the way and I don't have an infant spot) or fall (on waiting list for preschool), so I don't know if I should wait and see if she does leave or term sooner than that.
Some of the reasons I'm thinking of terming:
-She smells like cigarette smoke every morning, which causes my entire house to smell and many mornings I get an instant headache when she's here. Also, we just found out my oldest has developed asthma and is now on an inhaler and my youngest has really bad allergies.
-Throws temper tantrums all day long (even after being in my care for a year)
-Screams and cries when asked to do something herself (pull pants up, put coat on, clean-up time, etc.)
-Hits me when I try to talk to her at her level about why we don't take toys or block other children from playing in different areas
-Is extremely overweight and clumsy (I am afraid to have babies on the floor if she is near).
-Is no where near potty-trained and constantly soils through her diapers because they are too small
Just writing this I feel bad, but I don't know what to do to come out of this Burnout. :/ I know I would be able to fill her spot, but I hate letting people down.
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