To not feel used and abused today. I love most of my daycare kids like they are my own. (One child is a screamer and we just haven't bonded......) But I go out of my way for all of my families. And as I spend my Christmas Eve with two kids while their parent is off work today having a "free day" and my husband and kids are at his families having Christmas I'm feeling a little depressed. I couldn't afford to take off this year since our furnace died and our water heater is leaking and its just been a crappy year financially.
I feel very unappreciated this year. I don't expect presents from my families but I'd be lying if I didn't admit I at least expect a thank you.
One family I have takes off three months (4 kids) a year when dad gets laid off but I hold their spot until they come back because I love the kids. And I really struggle financially during those months. On top of that one child has a medical condition that requires special attention and all their kids are on a special diet that I have to buy more expensive food for. And I haven't raised my prices for any of their kids.
Another family I have changed jobs and went from 7 hours a day to 12 hours a day for almost 9 months and I never charged them extra for starting my day two hours earlier than normal...............
And both of these families are my friends. Maybe therein lies the problem......
I feel guilty for feeling this way and that really makes me feel petty. But then again I really just want to stomp my feet and scream that people should appreciate me.
Christmas is supposed to be about the Joy of Christ being born and I just can't seem to get any joy flowing this year...........
Thanks for listening to me vent. I hope everyone else has a Merry Christmas.
I feel very unappreciated this year. I don't expect presents from my families but I'd be lying if I didn't admit I at least expect a thank you.
One family I have takes off three months (4 kids) a year when dad gets laid off but I hold their spot until they come back because I love the kids. And I really struggle financially during those months. On top of that one child has a medical condition that requires special attention and all their kids are on a special diet that I have to buy more expensive food for. And I haven't raised my prices for any of their kids.
Another family I have changed jobs and went from 7 hours a day to 12 hours a day for almost 9 months and I never charged them extra for starting my day two hours earlier than normal...............
And both of these families are my friends. Maybe therein lies the problem......
I feel guilty for feeling this way and that really makes me feel petty. But then again I really just want to stomp my feet and scream that people should appreciate me.
Christmas is supposed to be about the Joy of Christ being born and I just can't seem to get any joy flowing this year...........
Thanks for listening to me vent. I hope everyone else has a Merry Christmas.
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